Nervous...

Well lately I have been really wanting to go to beauty school, but it will be soo hard when I have kash to take care of. I am determined to use cloth diapers and to breast feed, but when I think about going back to school, those things just seem too hard to do. I want the best for him, but I really want to go to school. If I wait too long then I'll have to pay alot for school. Since I'm in school they will help pay for college. It just seems so hard. Sometimes I wish that I could be having kash later in my life. But I guess things happen for a reason. When I think about what I want to do as a career cosmetology is first on my list, then its being a vet tech. And getting those going with a child is going to be very difficult, especially without money. :/ I guess I'm just a little discouraged. I wish I could do online school or something. Why is life soo hard sometimes...darn.