Not Destined to love school

Or life for that matter.. I'm having a hard time getting back to school. I had my mom call to make sure I was still welcome there. I thought it would help, I guess not. Now my parents are mad and Tyler is mad. Then I get into a self pitty stage and all I want to do is lay in bed and cry. I dont know why I'm so dumb. Why wont I just go? I want to go. I just dont push myself hard enough. I dont know what to do. I need to go for me and for kash. I'm worried that I wont be able to leave him home when I go. Its hard to go to school when the people around you dont seem like they want to be there and all they do is talk and not listen. That distracts me alot. I wish school was just as easy as sleeping. Does someone want to go for me? ha, I wish. Well I guess thats all...