Not Destined to love school

Or life for that matter.. I'm having a hard time getting back to school. I had my mom call to make sure I was still welcome there. I thought it would help, I guess not. Now my parents are mad and Tyler is mad. Then I get into a self pitty stage and all I want to do is lay in bed and cry. I dont know why I'm so dumb. Why wont I just go? I want to go. I just dont push myself hard enough. I dont know what to do. I need to go for me and for kash. I'm worried that I wont be able to leave him home when I go. Its hard to go to school when the people around you dont seem like they want to be there and all they do is talk and not listen. That distracts me alot. I wish school was just as easy as sleeping. Does someone want to go for me? ha, I wish. Well I guess thats all...

Scratch that...

Well I dont have a job anymore, I decided it was too much for me this late in my pregnancy.
Tyler isnt so happy with me. I've been pretty emotional lately.. I'm SO sick of being pregnant. I want to fit into my clothes again. I've become so freakin tired and thats all anyone ever talks about. It drives me crazy. I have the right to sleep as much as I can, I need it! I want to buy some warm clothes for winter but then I realize I have to buy them big and then I dont want to buy them anymore..Kash's room isnt ready and I need to clean it up but I'm so tired that I just sit. I havent been going to school, But I will go on monday. I have a cold and I cant breath. I'm sorry I had to complain..no one listens to me here.

I got a job..

Well I now have a job, I work at michael's. I start on monday. I'm excited for some extra money :D even though its not the job I really want. But it'll be good.

Our new family tradition..kinda :D

Well last week we all decided to go to the elementry school to play soccer and football, but later decided to play hot lava tag on the playground. We had so much fun playing that we decided to go again today. Its so fun playing like a little kid again! And how many 38 and 39 year olds do you know of that play hot lava tag?? Well my parents are COOL! We're pretty sure they dont make the playgrounds for our size people, but it still works. We've decided to go to a different playground each friday and play. Its an awesome way to exercise, spend time together, and get a good laugh! We need to take our video camera, some pretty funny stuff happened today. Well just thought I would share that..

Sweets :D

Lately I have been craving doughnuts and candy, The other day a chocolate doughnut and a blue airhead sounded delicious :D haha sounds silly now...

Too Confident??

Well everyone keeps telling me all these things about having a baby, and things that will happen when the baby comes. I know everyone is trying to let me know what is coming but I have baby sat before and I worked at a daycare. I know its gonna be hard, but I dont care. Everyone keeps telling me things like "just wait til he is screaming" and things like that, I know he's gonna scream all babies do, I know I have to feed him and change his diapers..I know it will be very hard..but I'm up for the challenge..