Stupid Brain.

I've decided that I have a very stupid brain. Here's a long story for ya. Tyler works at checker,(you all know that) and one day I (with my stupid brain) decided to ask him if there were any girls at his work that were hot. (yeah i know i know) And he said one. So I got mad. Even though I stuck myself in it. So I asked him all these questions about her and that made my brain go nuts. All I kept thinking about was how they were going to get together or something. That was about a month and a half ago. At that same time he added her as a friend on facebook and that made me even more mad. So I to him that I didn't want him to have her as a friend and he got mad (because I had guys for friends at the time) so we went through a big argument about having oppisite sex friends. And now a month or more later I can't stop thinking about it. His boss actually scheduled him with her by themselves from 3 to close. Seriously whats wrong with me? I cannot let things go. I still havent let go that a girl from the planetarium liked him like 1 week before we started talking and that he text her over our break in april. I dont know why I have to have this stupid brain. He tells me everytime something like this happens that he has never cheated on me and never will. And I believe that so why can't I just get over this? I always do things to make him mad at me. I really think its a serious problem and I need help. Its like I can't leave him alone or I think something will happen.

On another stupid brain note: I also have these pictures in my head of bad things that could happen to me. Like when we barbecue I always move away from the propane because I think its going to explode. Or when I see people walking across the street I picture them getting hit by a car and I can see everything so clearly. I ALWAYS think of the bad things that will happen. Seriously always. I also have thoughts that I feel like I cant control. Like when kash cries and has been stressing me out I've thought I'm going to kill him in my head then I think NO what are you thinking! I hate it. I feel like its someone else. I dont want to think those things. I cant think those things. I need help, someone to understand. I dont know why I do it. I dont want to do it. I dont know what to do.