Stupid Brain.
On another stupid brain note: I also have these pictures in my head of bad things that could happen to me. Like when we barbecue I always move away from the propane because I think its going to explode. Or when I see people walking across the street I picture them getting hit by a car and I can see everything so clearly. I ALWAYS think of the bad things that will happen. Seriously always. I also have thoughts that I feel like I cant control. Like when kash cries and has been stressing me out I've thought I'm going to kill him in my head then I think NO what are you thinking! I hate it. I feel like its someone else. I dont want to think those things. I cant think those things. I need help, someone to understand. I dont know why I do it. I dont want to do it. I dont know what to do.