Relationship

Lately my relationship with Tyler hasn't been at its best. We despretly need to communicate better. I feel like when I say things to him he hardly listens. Its like a tell him to grab something and he doesnt have it and I ask where it is and he tells me he didnt know he was supposed to get it. I dont understand why our relationship has been SO rocky. One minute I'm the happiest girl in the world and the next I want to leave him. Its ridiculous. I know relationships are hard, but this is worse than hard. Its almost like, is it really worth it? I dont know what to do. I cant handle fighting about the stupidest things in the world anymore. No one probably cares anymore because we've broken up and got back together a few times. And thats usually how my stupid life is anyway. Break up, make up, break up, make up...how fun! NOT! Why cant I just have one decent relationship. That doesnt end in me crying. Seriously I've had enough. I cant just leave him. I want to be with him. I just want things to be better. I try and talk to him. Sometimes he gets it and sometimes he doesnt listen. And I'm not just blaming it all on him, I can do better too. I just dont know what will work. I feel like we arent as nice as we should be, and sometimes its the joking stuff. But most of the time it hurts the others feelings. BAAA. life is hard. Freak! I'm terrified to get married because I dont want it to end in divorce over something dumb, like our break ups usually are. Things were different when we first met. I hate that things change. I HATE CHANGE. I dont know what to do. It doesnt matter. Sorry for bothering you.